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can see luh mister!.
dont pretend.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LIU HOLYLIGHT. :P

guess what e4 boys did to liu?
they wanted to flagpole him. but think they changed their minds
and threw him in a recycle bin.
but he emerged out of it while we were singing birthday song. lols.

confirm very paiseh. right? haha.
i wish we could replay that.

well. brother is back to his hostel.
won't get to see him till weekend.
and this sunday is dad's birthday!
hope he can come for FOP too :)
i'm like sooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited for it.
i cant sleep. haha

we're coming to the end of july.
service was super good.
im set free. yay! :)
praise the Lord!

anyway, prelims are coming.
so people! get on your books and start revising!!

anyway, i'm adopted by mdm mah.
haha. that was what i wanted though.
but a little worried cause i dont know what is the adoption thing about yet.
not adopt as in she become my parent but like a study mother like tt.

indeed, we live in a broken down world.
well. we really can't expect much from people.
lest we get great disappointments.
however, we can always pin our hopes on God
cause what He give is great and more then what we expect.

i watched Passion Of Christ just now
i'm so affected by it.
Jesus, suffered soooooooooo much.
i feel like such a bad person.
need to be like Him.

sigh.
i should start to learn to let go.
let go of stuff that bothers and distracts me away from important things i'm suppose to focus on.

meow! i love me :P

ITS BOWEN RACIAL HARMONY DAY! :)
though our class got 4th place.
but i mean like.. all the dressing up, cam-ing is soooo fun!!.

like there's 2 SUPER outstanding one - Korn & Fazly.
korn wore his thai suit. lols.. very cute.
and he brought his thai flag some more.
he super love his country luh!
then fazly wore arab suit.
initially look very terrorist-y. HAHS.
super FUNNY!!

like i said, i wore hazirah's outfit.
changed costume with joey at 1.30.. for fun.
i wore her cheong sam. VERY COMFY :)

well we really cam-ed like crazy today.
and very happy. just that..

oh yes!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAI TANG!! LOVES!!
PERINDE NAL VAL TUKELE(something like tt?)
SELAMAT HARI JADI(i think so) :)

heyheys!

it's a special day tml.
we'll be wearing ethnic costumes to school.
i borrowed hazirah's

went to her place just not.
her room like quite pink.
MANY MANY pink stuff.
she really lovessssss pink. hahs. :)

and today i wasn't late! thank God.
if i were to be late. think i'll get suspended
on the way i was like praying so hard also luh.
indeed God is good and He answers my prayer.

come live in me
all my live
take over

come breathe in me
and i will rise on eagle's wings.

i need to have more courage.
i need to fight temptations.
i need to go against my carnal flesh.

if not.. my life will be like.. nothing.

lala. well i had a great weekend.
except my blister just burst!! :(

yayness x10000000

today 4 koreans came to for cell group meeting.
its such a blessing!!
and not just that
they are super cute :)
i really love them luh!!

we took many many picture
sang for them. etc etc.
it was very fun fellowshipping with them

and cell group was good too.
cause while we wait for Sue to translate into korean
we absorbed the message preached.
sentence by sentence..

after CG we had nasi lemak and sprite float for refreshments!

lala. im happy still..
just had a looooooooooong day but im very happy!!
and still very excited.. and energetic.!

well. i just wanna say.
all the little things we do count.
and let's do every single thing seriously
with all our hearts, soul and mind. :)

love all

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RACHELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

im superx1000 happy!!!!
lalalalalalalalalala

today school was great. i was pretty attentive.
then after school i went to Bugis shop!! (must budget a little)
bought a bag, 2 top, 1 cardigan and shoes.
lalalalalal im going mad!!

then went to riverwalk for dance.
instructor yongzhi taught us some moves.
then starting is like stiff and all.
but overall super fun.. laughters and all..
so im like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO high!

:):):):):):)
im looking forward to next wed.
shall study after sch then dance!!

THANKS YONGZHI!!

tell you guys.
chocolate chip cookie is nice k! lols

anyway i finally got my fall out boy CD from CLEO
and far more then what i expected was..
there is their signature one the CD!! :)
i feel so honoured luh!! yayness

and today finished up my coursework.
finally!! :) after days and days of brain-torture.

so just now, i went to have dinner with dad.
and he bought 2 tubs of ice-cream!
yummy yummy..
rocky road and some brownie roof
so interesting luh! hahs..

im sooooooooooooooo happy today! lala

it's rev dr richard roberts!
service was good. :)
but i was really uncomfortable.
i was really sick.
sniffing and coughing.
used up all mine and my friends' tissues.

well. feeling very terrible.
God bless me.

i will make it to service tml. :)

TGIF

im soooooooo exhausted.
althought i didnt do much

i really dont know what to do.
i wanna go support too. but i doubt i can.
cg outing is equally good too! but..
i can only stay for about an hour.

and today im like sooooooo.. never-do-much
i thought BS was today. but changed.
then i bathed and all then i realised it changed to tml.
haha. so dumb..
but i was all set to go. so i went compass to study.
it was like freezing cold. and felt like terrible.
so while on the bus home, felt very sick
throat pain like crazy.
so went home. mom made some chinese medicine.
and i slept throughout until 10plus.
and here i am. blogging but still sick.

shall get healing. :)

lala. although it's kind of packed and packed for me.
well. i'm still looking forward to tomorrow.
feeling as if i havent go church for very long.
maybe i need to go everyday to not feel tt way. HAHS

i wanna watch harry potter.
i wanna go shopping.
but where's my time?


Let us not fall down to stay in the ditch wondering why God made us fall.
But let us fall down, only to rise up stronger.. :)

i just wanna die now.
if only i had the courage.

i never lived for you.
i lived for God.
i really dont like you.
you are dumb, violent, stingy and everything that's bad.

you only know how to accuse
never knew how to believe me
never knew how to appreciate.
never knew how to love.
never knew how i felt.
never knew what i want.
you just want what you want.
you just cant make it.
you're pathetic

yes we are suppose to love our enemies.
but i realised you are the only people i hate.
this home suck. i hate the fact.
rather be anywhere but here.

i'm miserable. i'm stressed.
all because of these bullshit you're giving.
my life was never meant to be like these.
i never liked talking to you.
you never know what i'm getting and start accusing again

why don't you just kill me.
life's no good with you. NOT AT ALL
God's the only one i can always find comfort.
unlike you, He's always there
supposedly you are to be my 2nd closest.
instead, i feel so distant from you.
as if i never knew you at all
i like my friends better
thanks guys, for being there for me

i always hide my misery and look like i'm very happy
inside of me, im always suppressing my unhappiness.
like everyone says. this is not good
it'll resurface again and again.
then i'll fall again and again
but i know it better after so many times
to seek God for He's going to solve my problems
i must've been on the devil's attack list.
i'm getting so much bullshit all in half a month.

family problem family problem and MORE family problems.
i just wanna shut myself away from them
or is it do i have only God in my family?
i guess so. i'm satisfied with that.

my face and hand hurts
all thanks to you.

i wanna be strong.
i can be strong.
:)

i feel great today!!
cause after school reopen,
i haven't really concentrate in any class
especially e math.
but today i even went to do my sums etc.
feel so proud of myself. :D

after school went to serangoon gardens to study
with celes ying mer and emok.
lols.. ITS LIKE SUPER FREEZING.
oh and i got myself a cinnamon iceblend. YUMS
so like halfway through my work,
ying and i went to walk around and
ended up at chomp chomp eating bean curd.
bandung beancurd plus yam. and aballing. :)
it's like super yummy.

then went back feeling so bloated and continues my work
well. i finish i think... 1 and a half worksheet.
that's not bad i think..

hmm.. just feel tt overall.
VERY GOOD hahs.

im still pretty bothered how to ask again.
being rejected soooooooooooooooo many times.

tuesday's child.

i'm hungry now. *grumbles*
well. i still somehow lagging behind in my studies.
still in my lala land.
i must wake up! exam's is one month plus later!! i mean prelims.

anyway. made my specs today.
yinghui supposed to come with me so can choose together.
well but jocelyn needed her. so nevermind.. :(
i chose a plastic purple framed specs.! pretty excited.
actually i didnt really chosen. but i think it looks fine luh.
cause i was somehow one-eyed that time.
well as long as i have specs

then i went for prayer meeting at riverwalk.
quite good. i mean.. especially the part about the mountain of God.
i wanna go draw one. :) lols. so random

anyway. I REALLY WANNA GET BAPTISED!

monday blues :(

sunday's terrible.
but the afternoon's quite alright.
went vivo to shop with celes yinghui anzoe and merilyn.
merilyn left early then after tt celes and anzoe left too.
leaving me and yinghui.

anyway i was late for school today
so exhausted.
my eyes were red and swollen due to previous night.
and joey didn't come today.
i was rather alone but actually i was somehow glad that joey didn't come
so i wouldn't affect her with my terrible mood.

so after school had to go for detention.
lucky darwin was there. and we like talked alot! lols











me and timmy!!! i miss him.














why are they drinking fruit punch like all together?













shireen's wedding style pose












my twin! coincidence.














the 'it's nixi!' pose













ladies in our cell group! :)















me in timmy's shades













N349 and the newly-weds.















liu and esther.
merilyn thinks they look like a couple.
i think so too! haha













the BS girls!



well i know i'm dumb enough
there is no need to make me feel dumber and lower my self-esteem even more
yinghui could be right. this is not concern eh please.
think you're feeling pissed too

TO ALL GUYS OUT THERE : CONCERN AND INSENSITIVITY DONT MIX CAN.

okay, away from the unhappies..

todays Jo's wedding day!!
07.07.07

had to wake up super early today
supposed about 5 but end up waking up at 6++
got changed with lightning speed and packed my stuff.
didnt have time for makeup so i thought i looked pretty. odd.

anyway i got my dress like last hour of my day yesterday
i was like so stressed thinking im going to end up having nothing to wear
thank God for finding my dress. and it's like super cheap! $19.95

back to the matrimony
i was serving
and well. it was much a boring thing but not a very boring one either.
Jo's so pretty and Tze Hui's so handsome.
lols and their love story is make of lego in the video.
and is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sweet
you can smell happiness all over.
and love is in the air!!
and other thing i'm happy is that everyone looks super great!!
i LOVE to see people in formal outfits. :)

hahs. well after that there were picture taking and buffet etc.
we took like loads of pictures with everyone. and with the newly-weds too.
OH and timmy came. i miss him. he and his crap
and he's so handsome now!
he've changed really a lot!!
and alot!! anyway, i really miss the building at JW
i guess the next time i go back will be during my baptism.
(it's not confirm though but i'm believing for it)

we did loads luh. showed you guys the picture.
the bride's really pretty!!!
LOVE YOU JO!

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone, I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think I'll make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

well. it's a long looooooooooooooong day for me.
had FNN coursework B planning exam for Os..
guess it turned out pretty well.
tomorrow's mother tongue oral.
and my english prelim oral.
i know many of you guys taken. but i was absent :P

after which i went home and did a couple of stuff
and i went to tuition. boring and exhausted day

i cant wait to finish ' tuesday's child' so i can borrow one more book
guess i'll be a semi-nerd starting next wk.
awww. that's gonna be tough work.

anyway, it's JO'S MATRIMONY ON SAT.
i'll be serving too.. gotta reach at like what? 8.15am!! lols
but i'm more than happy to do that.
however, i still dont have anything to wear for it.
HOW??


HAH. now he knows how i feel.
guess what? this is dumb
my parents are quarreling over a tiny dumb thing.
;about my dad not adding enough water in his noodles.
you must be laughing now. lols.
i would be if i were you

well my mom was just concerned for his health

and THE MAIN POINT IS THAT
he says, ' i told you i added.. you totally dont trust me at all'
then he complained ' if you dont know the facts, dont say anything at all'
(translated into eng)

that's what he's always doing to me.
he doesnt trust me. and accuse me of many thing when he dont know any thing at all.

i hate this.
REALLY DO!
think they'll need a counsellor.. badly. me too.

to the eMOK: yaya i bong.. but you're double of me bongbong :P

im having FNN coursework B planning exam tml.
it's for Os!! lols. not worried or anything..
well. i pray i'll do good :)

today's nothing.
went AMK library to study as usual
with yinghui. :)
then there's this like sick-in-the-mind guy..
keep looking.

well. i found a nice book to read. :)
should start reading and improve on my english.

fourth time im blogging. it's 2.41am and im doing my pathetic coursework.

weijie, thanks for brainstorming too! :)

i'm like so braindead now.
exhausted to the max! plus i had a long day.

went shopping with celes anzoe and merilyn at vivo.
well celes seems to be the most fruitful one
while i'm the most unfruitful one.
but in the end is like anzoe and me only. lols
kind of split up.. however, it's fun too! :)
we made fun of like so many things

and zoe's got her dress.
we had tea at white dog's cafe too.

2 july 12:04 AM

kept forgetting to post some stuff.

i wanna really thank those peopl who stood up for me when i was spam. :)
i mean i felt really.. touched. thanks guys!

Monday, July 02, 2007

10:18 PM

anyway went to shopping at vivo.
terribly unfruitful day
i had barely enough money to even buy a top
only bought shades from forever 21

i've got many stuff i want on my wishlist



this is from Bugis. $20+













forever21 $68





black forever21 dress $68
blue and white square forever21 dress $68
shoes from Bugis $59.90
short from Topshop
laptop cover
black and white square top from Bugis $20+
black&grey&white&red skinnies
blue&hotpink stockings
satin top from pull&bear $20+
red shorts from pull&bear$20+

anyway try this
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2 july 10:08 PM

HAPPY YOUTH DAY TO ALL THE YOUTHS OUT THERE :)

yeah. it's holidays and suppose to be happy
i'm not. it's a super unfruitful day and i feel and emptiness in me
and i think im like having a moodswing now.
suddenly i feel like knowing all my bad points.
can somebody just point it out?

anyway, this is just for random
i've realised that something you dislike about yourself could be something that another person is envious of. and also that probably when you envy someone, that someone could envy you too.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

1 july 11:39 PM

it's already the 1st july!!
O's crawling nearer and nearer to me.

been to service today.
as usual but served as door usher.

so didnt get to really listen to the sermon preached and all
but God's with me i know.

He encourages me when im down
He's there when i'm lonely
thank you Lord.

anyway. MALAN LA MIAN IS YUMMY!
TRY THE SOUP DUMPLING

11:28 PM

just sign the form and
let me be baptised.

you didnt know me
neither did you make the effort to.

tell me what to do.

i do want to be a better person too.
but you cant expect too much can you?

i'm stressed.
and you add on more stress.
you dont even know you dont even care.

i'm fine:)

30 june 12:16 AM

it's peter wagner's service today!
he is funny. but i didnt hear the starting part so didnt get it.

served communion today
ushers have to wear formal and
everyone look so good today.
matthew look younger so we praised him and
he said he feel as if he's floating. HAHA :)
seriously everyone look great luh!
we should do this often.
or rather people should wear like that more often.

plus today i bought a new bible.
the one that i wanted.

so so so excited!
anyway i guessed $9999 for the hamper. haha

17 june 1991
City Harvest Church
Temasek Polytechnic (FDM)
blackened.keys@hotmail.com

God
Celes&Morgan


WISHLIST:

*dSLR

*Hair extensions

*House w halfsheltered balcony

*Macbook

*Mannequin(black)

*Motorola razr v8 lux edi

*PencilBOX(artbox)$9.90

*Polaroid camera

*Pop camera

*Rubik's cube(toysrus)$15
(thank you SIT n my girlfriend<3)

*Sewing machine

*Travel all around Europe

*Try all 50 yummiest cakes in sgp
(refer to archive)

*Umbrella(zara/pink)
(thank you russel!<3)

*Webcam
(thanks N803!)








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